year of 2008 is drawing near. i wouldnt say i've accomplished much this year
but rather, a significant year for me. First, a transition from secondary school
to junior college has stimulated me to change. i've learnt that i'm never alone.
probably till now, i still have a lil trouble in speaking up about my personal
problems. disappointments and phobia scare me.

once had a close buddy who was always there for me,
accompanying me to work, eat and have fun together.
it's really a pity that u're not here. somehow i don rmber
those ugly memories. and i really hope u're doing fine.

and yes. it took my some time to open up.
getting to know my class girls seemed to be a chore to me.
i dunno. it just happened to me. not that they're complicated,
but i just didnt want to step out of my comfort zone.
honestly, i saw many girls to be inmature and naive.

but slowly, my thinking started to change.
i think mummy rachel is really nice to me. i mean, she
cares for me. i used to think she's a nerd and knows nothing.
i'm sorry mummy rachel. i bet u must be like, "huh! i'm a nerd?"

lols..

i didnt quite like xinwei in the first place.
to see a girl dressing up like some cartoon characters
in JUNIOR COLLEGE?
and i thought she's some kind of cheena hello kitty.
guess wat. i love her. she's probably someone who will truly
lend me her listening ears. she's huggable. and i would love to
learn many things from her which i probably don get a
chance to in life. thanks for being there for me babe.

kikuu, i don care how people gonna sae about us, but
i really see u as a great brother. u were there for me
when i was upset n everything. even till now, u're always checking if
i'm happy or not. helping me in my studies n
everything. thanks really.

selestine! sleeping beauty. i dunno how am i going to
survive next year without u. cos i thought when 2 people
ask the same question will at least convince the teacher to explain
the whole thing, all over again.
u shld have recorded ur voice in the mitten. i'm gonna miss you.

jeffrey and minglee. u two r my motivations.
don stop here. keep on growing.
things may be hard, but just two of u r enough to show me
how wonderful God is. and that prayers work...

ezekiel. thanks for being my movie partner these days. u r the one
started my TY bear collection. each serves an encouragement
to perservere, to trust in God n to see things in different angles.
oh yah, thanks for being my part time printer.

randolph. thou i get closer to u just recently. i could
see u're a really a nice person to mix with. u went thru
e trouble to show me the documents n everything.
i was touched ok? and u! my msn chat mate. lols.

mao, i could feel the underlying reason for
ur down feeling these days. not trying to act smart or anything.
but please, trust me that we're here for you.
u're not alone. so what if next year, the time table is different?
friendship can still last if we make the effort.
cheer up. we still love you.

hafiz, u're nice and helpful. another brother of mine.
yes, i don like when u suddenly shout in the midst of ghost story telling.
but i think i cant do anything about that. lols.
thanks for taking care of me.
i think im gonna b so damn blur without u.


I LOVE YOU GUYS. 2008 is gonna be hard, i know that. but together, we can overcome all the obstacles. countdown!

yaya's birthday is coming.
SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING TOO. start with the letter "P".
on the very 3rd jan. wow.

to grow with love

i find she's really cute.


new hongkong actor. i love him!
she's super pretty larhs.. myolie

杏 : 优美才容易获取所爱 总要和各界眼光比赛 长相你叫我怎麽改

自尊心也被人笑声掩盖

安 : 只怪凡人用眼睛恋爱 身世才沦为被爱的障碍 观众眼界线改不改

亦好好对待叫人人意外

杏 : 谁完美的标准

安 : 怎去量度幸福的轻重

杏 : 一千吨

安 : 这样重

杏 : 张开手

安 : 能用力地抱拥

杏 : 天生不算做漂亮 都多得你愿见谅 当丑小鸭被撇下

流亡 然後又被领养 人从来天生天养 然而难得你对我紧张

安 : 不必选美觅对象 丑样都这样漂亮 不必当世俗偶像

这世界谁亦有被爱的福相

合 : 蒙起这双眼冥想

杏 : 谁会让你恋上

安 : 忘记言论重量

杏 : 总要被旁人目光批斗 得我凭快镜遇上佳偶

所爱 我怕我讲出口 会给婉拒换来我心伤透

安 : 关爱 仍然是你所尊有 总有 情人明白你小宇宙

给我抱抱你一双手, 另一种美貌 我全部接受

杏 : 谁完美的标准 安 : 怎去量度幸福的轻重

杏 : 一千吨 安 : 这样重

杏 : 张开手 安 : 能用力地抱拥

杏 : 天生不会做偶像 都多得你愿见谅 彷佛整个闹市内

完全无人剩下我两 评头和品足咀脸 原来无需要太过紧张

安 : (人人能爱上，人人能结双)

安 : 请不必背负这样 丑样都这样漂亮

心底可拼命发亮 这世界其实有万百种色相

合 : 旁观者总会了解

杏 : 何以共我恋上

安 : 谁会是最理想

杏 : 天生不算做漂亮 都多得你愿见谅 当丑小鸭被撇下

流亡 然後又被领养 人从来天生天养 然而难得你对我紧张

安 : 不必选美觅对象 丑样都这样漂亮 不必当世俗偶像

这世界谁亦有被爱的福相 合 : 蒙起这双眼冥想

to you, there is this thing boiling in me. maybe u didnt know.
but i just wanna sae, ur words and actions r provoking me.
i don think i'm a girl who gets angry over small lil things.
but if u take my patience for granted, sorry i've to speak up.
i don think age is a measure of maturity. but rather, experiences.
i dony deny that i was frustrated, but, who doesnt ?
esp when so many things come at one go? n u just came at
the very wrong time. the fact is, i'm frustrated over school works.
not at anything else.n this frustration would just go in a few minutes.
but becos of u... well, i guess u jus dunno me well enough.
the respect i have for u is seriously, gone. becos i felt a sense of accusation,
stuck up attitude from u during the conversation. not that i dunno.
hey, i know alot. but i don go around telling ppl,
i know this n i know that. i've never said that this is
a competition between groups. u misinterpreted it.
don u know we even went out as a big group to have fun?
yes, i laugh and smile alot. i love to joke. but please understand,
i'm not a small girl. i don like to get preached at.
i admire these friends whom i have. they have strong talents
n everything.
but that doesnt mean i look down on others.
like comon, if u love strawberry, r u trying to sae u detest all other fruits?
i had enough of arguments. i don think there should be an argument
in the first place. like, what message r u trying to bring across ?
becos going one big round just isnt doing good for both of us.
u claimed u noe my intention. is just that my actions show otherwise.
like, what is this? u meean i treat them like enemies? i don understand?
and i don even care about approaching u to clarify it.
cos i trust the relationship i have with my friends.
whatever u want to think ok? i donno should i be angry or
find this matter a joke.
i think u read too much. thats it. u read too much into whatever i've said.
and don come to me n sae, u all n u all.
becos i know that message is only sent to me. i think i'm punctual enough.
i fought hard, not becos of u. but for the one who gave me the talents and abilities.
i'm not very pleased with u. maybe for this moment.
i hope u don keep thinking in ur own way.
becos, things arent going as what u think. we're one big family. i know that.
thanks for reminding me. n no need to worry. i don think u're lecturing me.
becos i think u r in no position to lecture me. i treat it a reminder from u.
thats it. i don wish to talk about this anymore.
I DON WISH TO TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE.
simply, i wanna forget all these bad things. is bad for my health anyway.
i stress again, i love my friends.
i'm sorry if my words are mean but i think ur words r no better.
i need listening ears and sincerity. i don need ur constant preaching.
now u think i'm a difficult person to deal with. but others don have the prob,
why u have? yes i'll do a deep reflection of myself. hey, u need too huh.

Thanksgiving

went to celebrate mao's bdae today. hahahas, but before that, had a big surprise from kikuuu n that is a NEW HAMSTER! so cool right.from PETS SAFARI. and yeah, he went broke after buying the cage n everything. poor dude. i really love 'christmas'. thank you kikuuu!!

shall bring him once a fortnight? or mabbie a week. hehehes.

east coast park is not a bad place after all. nice food there. yummy.

i am legend is OH MY! 5TARS

merry christmas

merry christmas everyone! first of all, thank u maria for the chocolates (= felt kinda bad that i didnt prepare anything for u. urghs. and kikuu. stop rotting at home can? come out and feel the christmas breeze.hahas.wees!

me,berlin,lee kiang and rufeng

minglee, selestine, and me

[below]

joshua.nicholas.vincent's friend.dev.kevin.chiensing.vincent.

jeffrey.randolph.freeman.kikuu.victor.ezekiel.puiye's friend.

niven.jae.minglee.jamie.leekiang.selestine.eadelin.berlin.puiye.rufeng.

my dear alissa. u're really sweet.

i cant bear to eat the candies u noe..

another present from victor. someone said it looks like a tissue box.

in fact, my grandma finds it so. okkk, let's hope is not a tissue box inside.

happy meal from minglee and a sweet candy from puiye!

FIRST CHRISTMAS SERVICE

Christmas service was SO awesome. n the drama was sooo nice.
n yes bryan. i want ur number. HAHAHAS. candlelight service was beautiful (=
how often can u get to see thousands of ppl lighting up their candles
at the same time? probably once a year? and is right here in city harvest expo hall 8.
i didnt take picture of the crowd this time.
cos i thought the camera man would do a better job.
simply go http://www.chc.org/. for the pictures!
but well well, a picture with glenda wun kill.

bought this bag from christmas carnival [ hall 7 ]

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. so yeah, i bought it.

guess what, my grandma blessed me with the money!

it's only at $26. [ good quality ok ]

ok kikuu. i hate u. cos chalet without u this crappy person is so fishing boring.

and WHEN BACK HOME,

i cant find a person to play minesweepers with...

and sooo... camwhoring at home. BLEHS!

the end of 07' draws near. something hits me, saying,
u deserve smth more. looking around, some accomplished nothing,
and of all these people, many want to start smth fresh n new.
but come to think about it, how many times have they said,
" there's always next year" or perhaps,
" i'm gonna do smth in the coming new year"
yes, u probably sick of hearing all these. when it comes to the
end of the year,repeating stories and promises, isnt it?
if u wanna challenge urself to have a great and impactful '08,
i think '07 is a stepping stone. end the year well
leave no regrets and start the new year with a brand new heart.
there's no point saying so much. just do it. and u will see the result.
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farewell dinner ...hurray! on farhanah's mum!

Swarovski crytals from ezekiel (=

and he bought me Britney Spears album!!! along with the

chocolate too.

everything from thailand (=

to ezekiel, all these r not counted as christmas prezzie ok!

so i shall eat the chocolate, listen to britney's latest album

n hang the chain to my phone before 25 dec (=

and now u go headache "must go shopping again". hahahas! yuppie! i love christmas

and yes finally.

****VICTOR CHAN***

MY WONDERFUL ANGEL!

THANK YOU FOR THE BLANK BLANK

PRESENT ((:

thank you rachel for the present! gonna open it on Christmas!

and yeah, the two snowy characters r bodyguards won by victor.

so don step near my present! (above)

amanda's present from kikuu. i'm amanda's angel's advisor.

(above) my present for my darling mortal -chantel :)

many many presents!

bubbles IN THE AIR. i din know there's a big christmas tree in chalet.

GOOD MORNING!

morning exercise- taking pictures on the bed

POOR BLUE FISH.
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/someone didnt keep the food.

/the food went crazy

/and den farted

/filled the whole room

/with the very very smelly smell.

had a good night chat with xinwei. this girl is sooo sweet.

(=

victor bought me anderson's ice cream... yummy!!!! tmr is chalet. WHEEES.

Christmas (=

is always so great to celebrate the season together (=

fantastic drama, awesome dance performance, touching stories,

exciting carnival, romantic candlelight service, joy of the crowd

and the presence of love, can all be found in City Harvest.

i would say is gonna be a real real real big pity if u miss it.

cos' that is our biggest event of the year! end the year well

with a great christmas experience!

especially i'm always here to allocate the schedule for u..

love' eadelin.

ALVIN THE CHIPMUNKS (=

i love chocolate brownies! [ bought from P.OsH ]

and i love chipmunks too!!!

watched the movie and yeah, bought the song album too (=
THEODORE LOOKS LIKE VICTOR. or victor looks like theodore. den selestine looks perfectly like alvin. WHEEEES. chipmunks r my friends.

(Dave:)Alright you Chipmunks,

Ready to sing your song?

(Alvin:)I'd say we are

(Theodore:)Yeah, Lets sing it now!

(Dave:)Okay, Simon?

(Simon:)OK

(Dave:)Okay, Theodore?

(Theodore:)OK

(Dave:)Okay Alvin?...Alvin?...ALVIN!!!

(Alvin:)OKAY!!

(Chipmunks:)Christmas, Christmas time is near,

Time for toys and time for cheer.

We've been good,

but we can't last,

Hurry Christmas, Hurry fast.

Want a plane that loops the loop,

(Alvin:) Me, I want a Hula-Hoop.

(Chipmunks:) We can hardly stand the wait,

Please Christmas don't be late.

(Dave:) Ok Fellas, Get ready.

That was very good, Simon.

(Simon:)Naturally!

(Dave:)Very Good Theodore

(Theodore:) He He He He

(Dave:)Uh Alvin, You were a little flat

So, watch it, Alvin...Alvin?...ALVIN!!!

(Alvin:)OKAY!!

(Chimpunks:)Want a plane that loops the loop,

(Alvin:)I still want a Hula-Hoop.

(Chimpunks:)We can hardly stand the wait,

Please Christmas don't be late.

We can hardly stand the wait,

Please Christmas don't be late.

(Dave:) Very good boys

(A Chipmunk:) lets sing it again!

(Another 1:) yeah lets sing it again!

(Dave:) no thats enough, lets not overdo it.

(A Chipmunk:) what do you mean over do it!?

we wanna sing it again!

(dave:) now wait a minute boys.

(Start Aruguing)

if only u take off your 'cool specs' and have thick skin but thin heart, u wouldnt care much about the people ard u. like, thin skin will only make u paranoid and thick heart will only disallow God's love, His tender hand to touch you. is a real pity. becos' the joy of lifting up ur hand and worshipping Him is amazing. if only u strip off ur 'cool' image, i guess u gonna have a good time with Him. but still, i believe one day u will.

this must be another stage of my life. stress converts into physical pain which tells you to stop giving yourself so much pressure. oh, whatever. i wanna finish the race well. whatever i've written on the SMARTER card, i want to make it happen. i don want to be shallow. i don want to waste another year. i don want to limit myself. i don want to sit back and sae 'thats it'. i don want to be lethargic. i don wan to give up. i don believe thats the result. i want to see something happen. no more history waiters. i wanna see history makers.i want to be outstanding. i want to be a person with new level of faith. i want to break off from the crap cycle. i want miracles. i want abundance. i want blessings. i want them. i'm fighting hard. i want more faith. i want more faith. i want to go another level...


i din know jellybeans can be so nice.

i did so much to see that smile on ur face, but it was pointless. after all, on my expense of happiness. still, repeating promises. oh well, i should be immune to such stuff by now. perhaps i need a little more time to understand the world. having the urge to fly over to paris. not that i'm in a holiday dovey mood. just wish to stay alone to watch the lightings and leave those ugly memories behind. one year or two, i hope is enough.

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mind's cafe rocks! i've learnt many new games. i'm good at expression but not reaction game.

mango float is yummy.

and I LOVE YOU SELESTINE! my third christmas prezzie (=

i could see and feel the effort in it. like really!
u're as sweet as the mitten lorhs. maybe u wun believe this, but i'm gonna bring this mitten to school everyday.cos i'm pretty sure your hand-made mitten has some cheering effects. so what if JC 2 journey is tough, but with ur mitten, is gonna be so much easier. i feel so ' christmas'. thank u selestine.

i was wrong to think u're the one. true colours show up. u wun go for smth that brings you nothing. like so crap. u think i was not hurt? i'm sorry that i've been wasting ur time. i didnt mean to actually. as far as i know, no regrets. not that i'm insane. just that i trust you. that moment with you. not trying to get anything out of you. but i'm just happy with what i have now. that conversation is ugly. i'm gonna burn it. finally, i pray that this is the right decision. thank you for being there for me. you're in my heart, always. i believe and i hope you do.

"You Light Up My Life"

So many nights, I'd sit by my window,

Waiting for someone to sing me his song.

So many dreams,

I kept deep inside me,

Alone in the dark, but now you've come along.

And you light up my life,

You give me hope, to carry on.

You light up my days

And fill my nights with song.

Rollin' at sea, adrift on the waters

Could it be finally, I'm turning for home

Finally a chance to say, "Hey, I Love You"

Never again to be all alone.

And you light up my life,

You give me hope, to carry on.

You light up my days

And fill my nights with song.

You, You light up my life

You give me hope to carry on

You light up my day's

And fill my life with song

It can't be wrong when it feels so right'cause you, you light up my life

Joshua! ur dumb face!

Thanks charmaine! for the beautiful snacks =)

WOW. IS CHRISTMAS SEASON (=

taking people for granted. don look around. it's you (=
we're the potential ones. think about it.
when u think the person is fine with it, you're wrong. hohoho
is pretty hard to avoid such issue. YUCKS.
just in one week alone, i realise that....
well, i know how to get angry too.

HOHOHOHOHOHO

-_-


BIG vs SMALL!

Holy dinner.
candlelight service

Breakway youth camp:

i would say the 2nd service of Day 2 camp was really awesome. The presence of the Holy Spirit touched us like an almighty wave.Futhermore, candlelight service brought me to a complete christmas mood. how great to dwell in His presence, i believe that the christmas services in expo n JW are going to be even more impactful.

Quick Shopping:

lost my voice ytd. really lazy to go see doctor. SELESTINE, LEND ME YOUR VOICE PILLS PLEASE. hahahas. and i think i'm nuts. went to buy candies from candy empire today. candies taste so much better than pills lorh. at the same time, bought a present for my mortal. OOPS, i know someone's angel....[ you're so blessed, selestine (= ]

Early presents:

i have new TY bears added to my collection!!